Not many eating disorder news stories appear on your TV unless it’s a celebrity being ‘accused’ of starving themselves for a film role or bikini season.
Last May I finally came open about my past Eating Disorder and how I suffered and was very ill with Anorexia for years in my late teens and early twenties, being in and out of hospital several times.
(My ‘coming’ out video can be viewed here)
I also did another video about my recovery and how now I’m stronger than ever, both emotionally as well as physically – (watch that video here.)
I had kept it quiet for years, not because I felt ashamed or that anyone would judge me,
Just that I had moved on, put it all behind me and honestly?
There are some very dark memories attached to the years I was ill.
But I remember the day I was admitted to hospital for the first time.
I vowed that one day, when I was recovered and emotionally strong enough I would help other sufferers break free of their demons too.
It might seem ironic that I’m now a personal trainer and nutritionist helping Mums lose weight, but actually it’s all the same really.
If you do not love and respect yourself, and your body, enough to look after it, then you will..
- Eat junk (or not eat properly) even when you know it’s not serving you
- Skip exercise because other things seem more important at the time
- Berate yourself for having no willpower
- Have no self confidence or self esteem because you ‘can’t stick to a diet’
- Feel bad about your body, because it doesn’t have enough energy to do the things you need to do to change, let alone look the way you’d like
- Give up trying because every time you do, you fail
And even from an anorexic’s point of view, all of this I understand.
I knew what I had to do, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it.
I felt mentally weak, and stuck, and miserable, but I couldn’t get out of the cycle.
But I learned to love my body and treat it well, and so can you.
Anyway what’s this about SKY News?
When ‘Beat’ eating disorder charity opened their helplines for the first time on Christmas Day to support sufferers and their families who might be struggling over Christmas,
SKY wanted to cover the story, came across my videos, and were so inspired they invited me to speak live from their studio during the morning Sunrise slot on Christmas Eve!
The video has been placed on the Sky News website – Click Here or on the link below to see it.